This weeks catch up

Hi everyone
I don't know how you regular posters do it. Each day I think about things that I really want to blog about but never actually quite get around to it. In the same way I try and read all your blogs almost every day but am never disciplined enough to actually make a comment there and then meaning I have to reread a few days worth when I actually make the time to write comments. I have decided that the rest of you never sleep and just stay on your PC all night, oh and maybe you don't work and you don't watch TV either. I'm not a huge TV person but with the new shows that have started that has eaten in to what used to my PC nights.
I'm still going with Biggest Loser. After the crazy losses they had in week 1, I was pleased to see that last Fridays were more realistic. I don't know about anyone else but I found Wednesday night the most emotional so far when they were able to call their families. I was a real blubber puss especially with Wal calling his Dad and Wal is not one of my favourites!
Last weekend I went along to the Jacobs Creek golf tournament that Adelaide was hosting with DH and DS3. I am not into golf at all but for some reason they really wanted me to go with them. At first I was bored but after a while I really got into it. It was great exercise following the players around and I never realised there were so many cute golfers out there - LOL We were out all day and then out again at night so I logged up nearly 25000 steps without any actual dedicated exercise.
I think that helped me get over the line this week as I have now got under the morning weight goal I set myself of 65 kilo's. I weighed 64.8 on Friday - yippee. I am still aiming to get to 63 but I don't really care if it takes months or if I don't actually get to that. I think that by saying, I'm not actually finished it may help me not to relax too much and lose focus, cos I sure know what happens when I do that. Although when I've lost weight before I have got lower than this I think that I look healthy at this weight and I really just want to try and tone up some more. I have started to try and do a new exercise I saw on TBL where you lie flat holding on to something heavy to stabilise you and then lift your legs up. I'm sure lots of you know what this is actually called but I had never done it before and boy can I feel it in my tummy, Gotta to do some good - I sure hope.
It's funny because even though technically I'm there I still don't think I am. When I was walking past the health food shop the other day I saw a promotion for some new slimming thing and automatically went to start checking it out before I pulled myself up and thought, I don't need this, I am slim. Weird, weird,weird. In the same vein I got a message on the answering machine the other day from a friend asking me if we wanted to go to a "Food and Wine festival" that was being held today. My first thought was OMG, food and wine, I can't go to that. I'm crazy I know but I am so scared of undoing all my hard work and falling off the wagon again like I have so many times before that I try so hard to avoid temptation. I feel like an alcoholic avoiding the bottle shop!!! We went and had a great afternoon. I ate, I drank both in sensible amounts and I don't think I'm fat again yet!!! :-)

This pic was taken today on my new toy. I have never been interested in a mobile with a camera as most of them seemed such poor quality but last week I discovered a new handset that had a 2 megapixel camera built in. It's not as good quality as my proper camera but at least I can take pictures now when I don't have my camera with me. It's called a Sony Ericsson K750i for those that may be interested. It's actually been around for at least 6 months but I hadn't seen it before. My handset was out of contract so I just had to get a new one!!! I'll leave you with a rose from my garden that I took yesterday. Hope you like it. Have a great week and I hope you all achieve the goals you have set yourselves.


Oh, I forgot this important tidbit. I had my February WW weigh last week and I was .9 below goal. Very happy little camper. Special thanks must go those yummy golfers that I just had to keep following around last Saturday, they really helped!!!

Biggest Loser

Well I don’t know about you guys but I am getting totally hooked on this show and boy it’s frustrating. I am not generally into reality TV. I was an avid watcher of the first series of Big Brother, actually I was really a BB obsessive but after one series I was very over it. I only watched the American version of Biggest Loser for one episode and I thought it crazy and never watched it again but as this one was home grown I thought I would give it a go. I didn’t get as emotional as some of you have mentioned during the first episode. I guess because they all knew exactly what they had signed up for it made me a little sceptical of their shock/ horror etc. Not that I can’t empathise, anyone with weight issues can and I know part of me was oh so grateful that I had never as large as some of those contestants. I am really interested to see what they eat and get a lot more info on their exercise routines. Any tips and new ideas are always welcome but so far we are not seeing much actual factual stuff which is a shame. I did find it really off when 2 of the contestants had to eat the hamburger and chocolate cake on Wednesday. It really brought it home to me that this is primarily a TV show, as if they were really concerned about them losing weight why have that type of thing in their challenges. My frustration is with all the repeating they are doing within each episode. Do Channel 10 really think we are going to forget what happened at the end of each segment so we have to have it rehashed 3 minutes later. I sure hope they do have the first weigh in tonight, the promo’s have been so deceiving with it appearing like there was going to be weigh in’s for the last 2 nights. Having never watched the USA eliminations etc I have no idea what will happen with that side so I will watch with interest next Monday. What I don’t get is how they will (hopefully) lose all this weight within 10 weeks. All the diet literature tells us that we should be aiming for ½ to 1 kilo per week so I don’t know how these people are going to lose tens of kilos in such a short time. It is going to be very interesting and hopefully there will be some very successful people on the show. What will be great is if it does have the effect of inspiring some people to try and lose weight and become healthier. I know I have been trying to ride my exercise bike when I am watching so that’s a big plus!
I got a bargain in the op shop today. I was looking for winter trousers and found a nice pair that looked in very good condition. I was surprised to see they had a $7.50 tag on them which I though a bit on the high side until I saw they still had their original $49.95 store tag on them. Tried them on and aside from being miles too long they were perfect – very happy camper was I.
I’m supposed to be doing housework so I better post this and make a very strong effort not to get stuck here reading blogs. Have a great weekend.

Body Image

Hi everyone and thanks for your comments regarding me getting back to my WW's goal weight. Now I just have to get rid of another couple of kilo's but seeing as this weeks loss was a "huge" 100 grams I think it may take me a while to actually get there. That leads me to my body image bit. As women ( I don't think any men read my blog) we are so hard on ourselves. I know I am and I do read on other blogs how so often we are dissatisfied with bits of our bodies. Now that I'm almost where I want to be I do feel heaps better and generally think I look pretty OK. That of course is when one stands face on to the mirror or even sideways when I am conscious of standing straight and holding myself in. My body has toned up but there are still bits I would like to improve. Well one really big bit in particular which is my stomach. In clothes it passable but I know it is flabby and no where near washboard flat. Realistically, I know that at 44, 3 kids later and many years of yo yo diets it is not going to improve much more no matter how much more weight I lost. Surgery is the only thing that probably would help it and that is one avenue I am not going down. If money was no object and I didn't have adverse reactions to General anesthetic well that might be different!!!! LOL . have recently become so much more conscious of looking at other slim women's tummies!!! This started after a doctors appointment last week with my really skinny female GP who has been really supportive of my weight loss efforts. She commented how good I looked in my skimpy Summer clothes and instead of just accepting the compliment gracefully ( do we ever?) I of course had to point out the rolls I still have around my middle. She laughed and said that she too had them and in fact most "real' women have them and then she showed me that she actually did. I had never ever noticed, I had always just looked at her and saw this slim woman - the whole woman! I was really shocked but rather encouraged that maybe it wasn't just me that had the rolly bits. So of course now I have turned into quite the voyeur looking at other slim women and checking out whether they too have wobbly bits around their middles and surprise surprise lots of them do. It's just that generally when we look at other women unless you're doing "research" like I am we generally look at the whole picture and don't hone in on one bit. I have to learn to accept compliments gracefully and realise that we are real women and not in fact Terri Hatcher. I mention her because I was stunned this week when I watched Desperate Housewives at how stick thin her arms were, never mind there's not much else either. I thought my arms were toning up nicely until I saw hers!! This time last year I just thought she was slim and gorgeous but now I'm really analyzing her and Nicolette Sheridan. I hate to think what they must have to do to get their bodies that skinny and boy it's role models like them that give us so many unrealistic expectations.
For a fantastic "real" role model check out Sue and her incredible effort today. Now that's one awesome woman!!!!!

I'm free again

No, I haven't divorced DH and the boys - I am "free" at WW's again. Yes, I've made it back to my WW goal weight so I am pretty stoked about that. As I've said before, this time around I haven't been going to meetings and all my weights I post on my blog are my morning naked ones!!! :-) I knew that 65 on my scales should see me safely under my 68 kilo WW goal weight. I went to my first meeting in 12 months just before Xmas and was just over goal. I weighed on Monday for my January weigh and I was 67.8 so I am now back to monthly free weighs. In September 2004 they weighed me at 92.2 kilo's so on their scales I have now lost 23.9. Just another couple of kilo's so I can have a bit of leeway. I hate stressing each month whether I'll make it or not and previously if I have been over I didn't go and then a few months later I would be kilo's over. GRRRR!!!

I don't know how I'll go with my home weigh this week as we had a friends anniversary dinner last night - a Chinese banquet which was very hard to resist. I said no to all the deep fried stuff but yes to everything else. It was yummy but I know I have to be extra good for the next couple of days to make up.

Last Saturday night DH & I went to the movies to see Brokeback Mountain. We used the Gold Class tickets I had bought him for his birthday last May!! I kept putting it off as I knew we would want to order the food and drinks that they serve in Gold Class. We had never been before and we both really enjoyed it although it was difficult to see what we were eating and I missed 2 x 5 minutes of the movie when the food came out. I loved the movie, anything that makes me cry, is a good movie for me. DH wasn't so impressed with the movie but he liked the food - what a surprise!!

Todays daily inspiration is "Look at things not just as they are but as they can be."
I don't think this time last year I really believed that I could get back to goal but I have and so can anyone. Visualise, plan and work your butt off and it can happen. Oh and clothes shopping for reward and motivation along the way sure helps too!!!!

Have a great week!!